As I sit here and write this blog post less than 24 hours before my daughter’s birthday, I just sit in awe of the blessing that was bestowed upon me almost 2 years ago.
Now you see when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter, I was 35 years old, never pregnant, excellent job, devoted relationship with a great mate, and most importantly, I was living my journey through the steady instruction of God.
Prior to the findings of my pregnancy, I came to the notion that at that particular point in my life it probably wasn’t in His will for me to be a Mother, and I accepted it as just that. I didn’t question Him. I became content with the life that I was living. I was in my late 30’s, who in their right mind would want to conceive a child at that age? Based off what society says: “I’m too old”.
From the outside looking in you would have thought that I had it all together. As I stated before I had what the world would consider the “luxuries” of life (degrees, job, relationship, church home, etc.), but to be totally honest I still felt like something was missing. Here I was tutoring, mentoring, advising these beautiful children of all ethnicities, but deep down inside I still yearned for my own “seed”.
Let’s now fast forward to April 24, 2016 at 12:10am.
This is the day that my life changed forever as God awarded me with the best gift imaginable, my daughter Ebonni Joella Moss. After all those months of aches, pains, sleepless nights, swollen limbs, facial changes, surgeries, endless Doctor appointments it was evident that
“God gives his hardest battles to His strongest soldiers”. And it was at that very moment I realized not only was I now someone’s Mother; but my life was no longer just my own.
Now, here I am embarking on 2 years of this precious journey of Motherhood. Even through the obstacles, as well as the triumphs, I wouldn’t change it for anything in this world. My daughter has shown me strengths (weaknesses included) about myself that otherwise I would have never discovered if it wasn’t for her. I’m thankful every day for this miracle, and just when I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it; it was shown and proven that I could.
That just goes to show: “When the World says No, leave it up to God to say Yes”.
By Nina Frazier