Pushing Through the Soil

June is always such a dominant month for me. Not just because I was born in such an amazing month but because its the halfway point. Here we are at the end of the 2nd quarter of 2018. For some, it's stressful because it's the end of a business' fiscal year and with that comes reports and moments of truth as you look at how productive you've been. For others, it's a wake-up call. How many times have you said, " It's June already?" 


We are taught to measure progress based on time since well that is one of the easiest ways to keep a universal timestamp on where you been and how long it took to get to the next step but why? What if my four days only takes you two because you're making more significant strides? We are all on our Journey to "there." Although each of us may have entirely separate destinations, we often fall into comparing our journey with those we see around us. This one's for you.

To the seed who lost its way,

If I had the power to show you the end from the beginning, I promise some days I’d jump at the chance because I don’t want you to give up when your tomorrows aren’t going to be as rough. If I could stand and hold your hand as you stumble to get back on your feet, I would just so you feel a little safer and a little less alone. If I had the power to carry the load just so you could breathe a little easier for a moment, I’d do that too. But if my thirty-two years in life has taught me nothing else its taught me the importance of allowing life to touch you. Life was not meant to be just a walk in the park on a clear spring day as your favorite band plays a live concert on a parade float behind you. While tossing your favorite candy. Life was meant to be lived. The beauty of living is actually in the pain, growth, and victories you experience altogether. I personally believe God allows us to experience all of life’s highs and lows as a reminder that this life isn’t meant to be lived without him. He didn’t promise to make it easy he promised to never leave us. So even now as you look around and you only see the dirt that life has tossed on top of you remember baby you’re a seed. You may think your being buried alive but you’ve actually been planted. It’s your choice to sacrifice your seed for the plant that’s waiting to push through the dirt and live. Don’t do what I did and waste time looking for people and things to brush off the dirt of life. PUSH THROUGH AND LIVE.  

To the first sprout of the season,

So here you are in a new place, with nothing but opportunities and adventure all around yet the only thing you focus on is that you don’t see the group of seeds you went in the ground with. You grew comfortable in the dirt together because you knew if they got sunlight so would you. If they got a little extra water so did you. But then it happened. You woke up one morning and you didn’t feel the same. Your needs were different. You felt a pain and stretching that was uncomfortable, unfamiliar and none of those in the ground with you could relate. I get it. I too felt the struggle between growing and holding on to what I had grown accustomed to. I didn’t want to leave my comfort zone yet everything in me hurt because I’d outgrown that place. I too had to push through the dirt of life because of the overwhelming desire to grow up toward something new. To you, I say look up. I know it doesn’t always feel good to be the first out of the group to break away and begin living life as it was individually purposed. We weren’t really prepared growing up that although nice and comforting in thought you really won’t go to college with your childhood friends. No one prepared us for the possibility that life could take us far enough away that living in the same place, starting a family and your kids and their kids may never even meet let alone be close friends. Although I’ve seen it happen that’s not the reality of many. It is okay to be the first. You are in season right now and who gave you the right to not grow just because you’ve been among seeds that have died, didn’t retain what was given to thrive or simply didn’t push. Your new life in your new place although scary at times is the beginning to something far greater than the world has ever seen simply because no one on earth was given what God placed in you. Grow and allow God to make you someone’s favorite flower.

K. Diane
​Nashville, TN